IssValenti The Dreamer

Its already 1:54am and i cant sleep i got school at 9am today..Instead i am her with a cigarette on my right hand typing this and listening to piano music..something abut piano's just makes me relax..okay i lied am listening to a sad song reminds me of someone..i dont know whats wrong with me i just miss her so much..its been 1year since we last spoken..i think the last time i saw her was when i gave her a ring that time we already breakup but i decided to give her the ring anyway because the purpose of me buying the ring was to give her..And on her birthday i gave her a teddy bear and she named it July because we became a couple on 22 july 2008..I am tearing just typing this..most people think that i am stern and calm..but on the inside i am no diffrent then what i am last time..A sentimental guy, like to be alone a loner a lonewolf some might called it...I just miss her soo damm much..Even Gabriel my otherself misses her..i dont know..i dont know anymore..I dont know whats right and whats wrong,whats black and whats white...Yesterday morning i went to the Park near my house just to sit there enjoy the morning wind..when this owl came flying next to me..I didnt even know there's an owl there..i looked at me as if i knows me asif it was trying to tell me something...I cant control my tears right know..Her face still resides in my mind..A face of an Angel..The first Angel that truly knows who i really am..Always there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry one when my friend was in a accident (i have avenged his death)..she is always there giving me a smile..i dont know when this will stop..This is the only way that i could talk about the things on my mind..i'm gonna stay strong..Fierce as a fire,swift as the wind,immovable as a mountain,grounded as the earth itself....They say that relationship cant have secrets..I'm gonna send this link to my girlfriend..If she is angry i cant blame her..my mind is in a mess..And if your reading this i am sorry to let you read this..My mum says that relationship cant have any secrets..i cant sleep because i didnt tell you about whats going on with me..If your angry i cant blame you..you decide how you want to react.Thats it its done...I'm gonna listen to the song over and over again till its time to go to school..And Gabriel says "Hi"....