IssValenti The Dreamer

The year is 2009 now i made alot of bad decisions made some good ones but the one that really bugs me is the bad decisions that i made..2nd year in ITE macpherson now..things have been hectic in school with floorball,projects and all that kind of shit...i dont know if i can keep up the pace...I dont know whats REALITY and DREAMS anymore....I am somewhere in between i guess..Writing in my blog here reminds me of an Angel that use to be with me..And Angel that has thaught me alot of things,Angel that is there when i lost my best friend due to an accident..Dont get me wrong The Angel is still i my heart..I miss the feeling of being needed the feeling of my heart beating fast...I miss alot of things..Now i've change i dont feel this kind of shit anymore thanks to Gabriel..Hahahas..you and me are going to be best frens for life..welcome back my fren...The feeling of doubt is at its strongest point..I'm having doubts about one particular thing i'm going gonna say and stop asking me about it..Its making me crazy every single night everywhere i go even when i am sleeping...Should i or should'nt i..?..Is this right or is this wrong..?..What the bloody hell am i doing..?...what was i thinking..??This is the things that messes up my mind...I may look happy and outgoing outside but in the inside only god knows how i feel...Its starting to make my heart bleed if you know what i mean..writing like this makes me feel slightly better...gotta find the answers to my question soon or else i'm the one thats gonna end up going crazy...when i am alone with no lights no sounds no wind no voice and all that shit thats the only time i can get to know whats going on in this mess up brain of mine..I'm the one that started this mess and I am going to find a way to end it if i cant i'll just have to suffer...