IssValenti The Dreamer

My mood today lets see there are afew of them so bare with me...

• Happy
• Confuse
• Helpless
• Confuse

The main thing is today that i am confuse of what in the name of all that is good is going on in my freaking LIFE....!!!!!!!! Sometimes i just wonder why things happen.. Someone said to me that things happen for a good reason.. Well i dont really get it what will come out of something that is born from uncertainty,uneasy and just pure confusion... Tell me what will be born from that.. All i know from my experience from living in the dark is that there is always something freaking evil/cruel will be born from that.. Ya know my heart right now is having a mixed feeling and my otherself just wanna get to the bottom of this.. But if i force it open i may get into another problem and it will never end.. But waiting for the right time and summoning my courage to find out is killing me slowly.. So either way i am screwed...If this is the fate of the wolf than so be it.. But i wont go down without answering my question.. I will do everything it takes to put this matter to rest.. I did what i could,I am very patience with this feeling and i am still holding on i have not lost control yet... But the question now is 'will i be able to find out what is going on?' and 'For how long can i hold on?' Even the most patient person on earth has his/her limitation and mine are far from breaking... Repaying bad with bad is not advisable cause when things go bad it becomes worst.. My wish right now is to get a Shotgun possibly a pump shotgun and shoot my freaking head with it...HEADSHOT..!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahahahahahas.. Okay i am losing it before things gets worst i wanna sleep..Nah i just stay up all night and think about it...Hahahahahahahahas.. Anyone reading this tomorrow i might not be who i am..sorry guys i am stressed out and anyone get in the freaking way or try to annoy the fuck out of me i will personally make them bleed to death or atleast ya know SUFFER so they learn their lesson...So cya Cruel world and all its inhabitants...The wolf is gonna do some soul searching and will try his best to figure everything out so cya next time... IF THERE IS A NEXT TIME HAHAHAHAHAS...