IssValenti The Dreamer

Wednesday 19 August 2009,11:37pm

All that i done this past few years was all for nothing,nothing zero =,absolutely nothing and just to find out that it was all a lie.......Right now i got no fcuking idea who i am,one thing for sure i know is that i am a Human cause i bleed..HAHAHAAHAHAHAS WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME...WHY DOES THINGS ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO FUCKED UP WITH ME,THE THINGS I NEEDED,THE THINGS THAT I WANT ALWAYS SEEM TO GO WRONG NOTHING IS WORKING MY WAY ANYMORE,I CANT EVEN THINK STRAIGHT...WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING TELLING YOU GUYS THIS...WHAT IS NEEDED TO MAKE THINGS WORK HUH...THE MASK THAT I HAVE BEEN WEARING THIS FEW YEARS IS ABOUT TO BREAK AND THEN WHAT...??...I CANT REVERT TO MY ODLSELF AGAIN I HATE THAT AND NO ONE LIKE WHAT I WILL BECOME..BECOME A SARCASTIC BASTARD,RELENTLESS,HOT TEMPERED AND LIKE TO HIRT PEOPLE........Iskandar i want you to relax we can solve this problem together my friend........BACK OFF GABRIEL....I need to find my own way of solving things,it's always you that did it for me and now the time has come for me to find my GOD DAMM answers.!!!...And what is my question...?????? HERE I LIST IT DOWN FOR YOU....

1)What the hell is LOVE and WHAT in the name of god does it mean..??
2)What is my purpose living in this world.???
3)What the hell is wrong with "YOU"..??
4)Why is the sky blue and shit..!!???
5)And why the hell am i listing it down...?????!!!!!!!!

There you have it as you can see my recovery period has stop because of a dream,and now i cant fcuking tell why it is happening...???!!! MY HATE FOR ANGELS IS BEYOND MY HATE FOR MY OTHERSELF..I THINK YOU KNOW WHY...I PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAMM DAY I PRAYED SO HARD TO FORGET ABOUT HER AND TILL THIS DAY I CANT....WHY..? WHY..? Iskandar FUCKING stop this now....There must be a reason why right..?..DID'NT I TELL YOU TO FUCK OFF...SHE IS THE ONE THAT IGNORED ME AND WHY AM I FEELING THE PAIN,SHOULD'NT HER..? IS SHE EVEN FEELING PAIN..??????I doubt that Iskandar,everything happened happens for a reason..She chose to ignored you now make your call Iskandaryou cant keep living like this,you cant keep putting masks on and act as everything is okay...HAHAHAHAHAHAS FUCK THAT GABRIEL I WILL MAKE MY HATE GROW SO STRONG,STRONG ENOUGH TO MAKE A PERSON SUFFER THAT THEY WILL FEEL MY PAIN...HAHAHAS.....

Blogging:A bridge between me and Gabriel to communicate so fuck off if you dont want to know anything Simple aint it...??? HAHAHAHAS....