IssValenti The Dreamer

well its around 3am in the morning i cant sleep yet i dont know what is bothering my mind,too much reasons too much doubt too much of everything,everything has been going really fast lately and i cant seem to keep up...Haiz i can never change can i there is always something that is making me feel uncomfortable and restless and dont even get me started with angels anymore i really wanna stay away from everything that is well ya know..So yesterday was a normal day nothing much too talk about though,i recently got back into Dueling because Ismail made me interested again as usual i beaten everyone one that challenge me..Kinda bored maybe gonna quit soon,i dont know...I havent touch photoshop for awhile now i dont know what to do,my feelings aint flowing in the right places and i cant stop thinking about you know who i dont know why but i sometimes just wish i could forget everything except the memories of my family and best friends and just erase all those memories that kept popping up like a Advertisments on the net or like the "whack-a-mole" game where by the mole just keep popping up until you hit it with a mallet.Sometimes when i look at a hammer i thought of just doing the same thing to myself but i know unlike the mole game i ont survive that kind of hit Hahahahahahahahahahas HAIZ Iskandar are you done moping about your sadness,why not go and play some CS and shoot the shit out of people bro seriously ya need to wakeup feel the wind on your skin and just watch the world revovle around you...........You are so fcuking annoying me man..let me just say what i am thinking right now,every night i look at the moon i remembered why i chose her 1year ago..Hahas yup good old days right gabriel...Hahahahas yeah right whatever..Your kinda mean arent ya whatever so i guess i need sometime until i can pick myself up again ya know focus on other things other than this kinda stuff,i have alot too learn on how to love,and what it actually means on a deeper level...until the time comes i Iskandar will remain calm,collected and ARGHHHHH WHAT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT HAHAHAHAS WHO NEEDS IT I CAN SURVIVE ON MY OWN AND WITH GABRIEL ON MY SIDE I WILL SURVIVE UNTIL THE DAY THAT I AM BURIED IN THE GROUND.......I AM GOING ALL OUT TO REGAIN MY HONOR AND DIGNITY BACK...JUST WATCH ME WORLD I'LL TRAMPLE ON ANYONE THAT TRIES TO BLOCK MY PATH I DONT FUCKING CARE IF YOU ARE A GIRL,BOY,GAYS,LESBIAN OR WHATEVER SHIT YOU ARE......BLOCK MY FREAKING PATH AND YOU ARE DEAD or atleast i will make you SUFFER...Hahahas...Thats the spirit Iskandar i am so proud of you Hahahahas................................WHATEVER I AM OUTTA HERE CYA FOOLS...!!