Monday August 3rd 2009 4:32am...I just wokeup from a bad dream(Nightmare) i dont wanna talk babout it though...I just wanna let out some steam that is in me...The pressure of being "Iskandar"..Alot of things on my mind the most is "She" is still in my mind i thought i erased the freaking memories i even put all those things that remind me of her into a lock cupboard...I cant forget her..I pray everyday hoping that i can forget her but i think God does'nt want me to forget about her...There must be a good reason why though..If our path of destiny crosses it may/may not be a good one possibility(1)we may be together again possibility(2)we may become an enemy possibilty(3) We may become enemy and then together..The possibilities are endless...And the worse thing is i have to walk this Path alone..Who knows what awaits me there..Will it be another darkness at the end of the tunnel or will it be Light,light that i so hate but i do not know why i need it...The voices in my head says "Iskandar,dalam perjalanan hidup kau,kau tidak akan keseoranngan kau ade keluarga dan kawan yang masih kesah pasal kau"...In english "Iskandar,the journey that you are going to take you are never alone you have family and friends that care for you"....The voices sounds like an old man i dont know about it i never heard that voice in my life...I dont know what that voice want with me or why it is telling me this...There will be a time in my life that i can forget my problems and have fun...BUT today seems to be the day that i become a lonewolf once again..I fcuking hate that seriously...A good friend of mine (Now he is no longer here living) once said "Life Iskandar is like the ocean,you always take the force full approach in life forcing your way to the top,using others as a stepping stone to reach your destination,you can do that BUT you sometimes need to ride the wave in order to reach the horizon beyond the vastness of the ocean"..He said that to me 1day before he was gone..Haziq i really miss you my friend..Now i really know why i look up to you as my brother..I Iskandar promise that i wont get the fear of striking out gets me down,as long as blood running through my veins,i shall continue this journey of life with or without you my dear Angel....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS You are starting to sound like me Iskandar very nicely done my friend hahahas well3 you heard that you so call "ANGEL" i dont think it suits you angels dont make a innocent soul suffer for....Mark our words Iskandar and i shall continue this journey with or without you in it....Love is like a poison sometimes that poison is not toxic and sometimes it can fcuking kill you instantly..That is what making him suffer LOVE..!! That's enough haiz alrighty then i shall take my leave till i get back Iskandar and his shadowy looking friend here signing out..!!
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